Shainu is in the nesting phase. I don’t know if that’s a real thing. I do remember that when Shainu was pregnant with Hannah she had this sudden urge to clean the apartment. For about a week, we cleaned every square inch of our one bedroom apartment. You could eat off the floors. Within a few days after we were done, Shainu went into labor. So we’ll see what happens, but we’re at it again. Shainu’s been organizing the closets and cleaning the rooms. I finally cleaned out the car and emptied the trunk that we had been using as a storage closet.
The other night, as we were cleaning, Hannah was running in and out of the room. She would play with her dolls, run into the room, mess up one of the piles of clothes we had folded, run back out, and on and on. At one point, she asked, “Where is Jesus?” We were in the middle of getting things done so that we almost missed it, but we paused. “What did you say sweetheart?” we asked. And she repeated her question, “Where is Jesus?” One of the cool things that we’ve noticed is that Hannah’s little mind is growing so that she’s asking more questions. For example, some time back, she asked me about why we couldn’t see Jesus. I remembered something I once heard about the wind. I blew in her face and as she laughed, I asked her if she could see the wind. And we talked about how though she couldn’t see it, she knew it was there.
Anyway, back to this moment. I asked her, “Hannah, you tell me. Where is Jesus?” She answered that He was up above. We told her that she was right and added that He was also in the room with us. I went on to say, “And He lives in my heart too. And He lives in Mumma’s heart too. We asked Jesus to come and live in our heart and He promised that He would. So He lives in us now.” She said, “And I asked Jesus and He’s in my heart!” We said, “Hannah, would you like to ask Jesus to live in your heart?” She said yes, and so we kneeled, and Hannah prayed, “Jesus, please live in my heart. In Jesus’ Name, Amen.”
For a moment, I panicked that I had not explained the whole thing well. So I told Hannah about how we had sin in our heart and Jesus needed to die to deal with it first. After 30 seconds of preaching the doctrine of total depravity and reformed soteriology to a three year old, Hannah said something like, “Dada, can I go now?” “Yes sweetheart, you can go.” It was perfect. Relax, Ajay.
We were grateful for the moment. We know that it’s one of ten thousand moments the Lord will graciously give us to shepherd our daughter’s heart to Jesus. Some of them we’ll knock out of the park. Some of them we’ll fumble. We’ll do it imperfectly, but by God’s help, we’ll do it. We’re not leading her to pray a prayer and then kick up our feet and relax. We’re shepherding her heart. We’re taking whatever moments the Lord gives us and seeking to point her to Jesus. We’re praying and longing and waiting for the day when our children consciously repents of their sins and turns in faith to Christ. Along the way, we’re trusting that the Lord will give us a myriad of moments. This was a good one.